Monday, September 13, 2010

Jaded? or Guarded? or Concerned?

Saturday, I received another request for a full manuscript from an agent. YAY! Right? Then why am I not jumping up and down for joy?

Have I become jaded already from the number of rejections I've received (but... I've *only* received one rejection on a full... so far).

Or am I guarded because of the rejection I received on the full ms. Does a rejection on a full mean the writing isn't good enough and I should stop sending queries and revise and improve more? Or does it just mean the one agent didn't like it? Oh my.

Or am I concerned because what if this agent likes it, really really likes it? And she offers me representation? Then what? I've worked so long and hard to get an agent... do I know what to do if one actually offers me representation? Should I start researching and planning for THAT big event?

Or do I just have a chemical imbalance... a mental disorder... hormone swing?

Ack. This waiting. Not knowing. Hoping. Revising. Writing. Hoping. And not knowing is taking its psychotic toll on me today.

Maybe I should just go take a shower and then go sell some Bernina sewing machine at Quilt Crossing today.

What do you think? Do I need to be medicated?


  1. It's maddening, isn't it??? I know how you feel. I just received a rejection on a partial and waiting o hear back on another partial and a full (of 2 different stories).
    But I don't know if I should keep querying or start revising more or just start a new story altogether.
    So I know how you feel. I can't wait to get to that point where we can really be recognized as a writer so we can focus on more writerly things.... lol. But you know, after an agent says yes, then you have to wait for them to sell it and worry about being rejected by publishers.... argh! Neverending!
    Best of luck! :)

  2. Truth: I don't know if I should keep querying or start revising more or just start a new story altogether.

    You said it perfectly. Maddening. And, yet, we chose this path! ha.

    Thanks for commenting!